Life just happened
Life always just happens
With scant respect for all my plans
Scattered with randomised turn of events

Sometimes it offers more than I expect
Filling my cauldron with ecstasy
Elevating my doddering self-esteem
From the realm of the ordinary to the phenomenal

The dizzying moments are intoxicating
Exuding an aroma of arrogance
A certain numbing of the mind
Perhaps a dulling of the wisdom

But at times, life draws me down to the depths
A hopeless, unstoppable cesspool of misery
Where I clutch on to mere half-straws
To keep my sanity and sensibility in balance

Where after a bout of self pitying, I realise
That the hurt is necessary for me to heal
For through those throbbing strands of pain
The truth reveals itself gradually, aiding the process of self discovery

Subir Chakraborty
13th April 2022